Reincarnated from the past, brought to the present and forever lasts in the future

To recapitulate the whole story concerning the blogging gizmo, stated below is the original version of my avowal, emailed to some dear friends.

There're certain thresholds that have been naturally fixed for anger, annoyance, irritation and etcetera in our very own bodies and every individual possesses his or her own unique boundary. Mine is high I suppose, meaning that I can cope up with devastating, maddening and infuriating incidents for quite a time. But then when it hits the highest point, then I firmly believe that the concreted wall of my emotion will not be able to keep hold of it any longer then, and like a swish of the wind, it's torn apart, leaving a deep wound deep down my heart. It's not the bleeding amount that matters, well, our bodies generate our own RBCs rite ? but the deep wound itself will get fibrosed and soon, scars will be permanently imprinted deep down there, unhealed. Thus, I've decided to stop blogging at once.

When I made the decision to put a full stop on the blogging world it seemed that it's final. I swore to myself that I will never get back to my blog and glance thru the comments (but miss moderator is always keeping me updated with news). But the egocentric barrier of mine finally melts down I assume by the tender and loving supports from other bloggers ( miss moderator keeps me updated by other bloggers' comments, really).

And no worries, my blog will be restored as soon as the therapeutic laser micro dermabrasion completely heals the scar (feels like i'm a dermatologist, taking care of my patients' acne scars). Just wait, in a week or two, or a year or two. It will soon be reincarnated. After all, my blog is charmed... forever (muahaha charmed last episode)"

Summing up the circumstances above, I have decided to reinstate this blog mine into its original set on a very special date, 30th May 2006, the first anniversary of my blog.

This very own entry is actually a symbol of my utmost appreciations for your vast and countless supports. Without you guys, my blog will no longer survive in this ferocious blogging atmosphere. So here's my newly reinstated blog, reincarnated from the past, brought to the present and forever lasts in the future.

To begin with, I dont regard me myself as one of the weirdos out there. Yeah, I'm a simple ordinary guy, living a normal life yet; I have done countless peculiar stuff. However that doesnt signify that I am a weirdo, thats just the uniqueness that everyone else possesses from the day they first gulped the breath into the alveoli of theirs and the uniqueness in many ways progresses in later ages.

By the way, there IS an odd craze I always do. An odd mania nobody will ever think of muahaha and nobody else has ever known about it apart from this very good buddy of mine. Well its not that important, and let it be the clandestine secrecy between The Creator and I.

Here is my list:

1) I can sleep for long never-ending hours, intentionally or not regardless of the time and condition. Being hassle-free and relaxed doesnt necessarily mean that I shouldnt have a long good sleep. I firmly believe that sleeping is the most crucial part in our daily lives in maintaining the health mentally, physically and emotionally. It is a human's natural healing mechanism after all in which your cells regenerate faster during unstressful conditions. What else? Well, I dont fancy sleeping on the bed, it provides a limited space. Nauseated, I will eventually feel that there is no air in the room and dyspnoea will follow later on. What I do is simply tossing the mattress off the bed, letting it resides on the floor.

2) On the other hand, I'm capable of walking out of my dreams by any means of the slightest external stimuli. Say if the speakers of mine are on, then the YM buzzing sound will awaken me up as well as any SMS ring tones and incoming calls. Hence, Itend to keep my mobile phone on silent mode all these days. Clock alarm will stir me up, but I will constantly press on the snooze button so that it will ring like forever. The only problem is that I will typically fall asleep without setting the alarm up. Sigh~~

3) Talkative + a Grammy's award nominee for the best actor category. Say if I have to face a situation where I dont have anyone to talk to, I will go nuts. I may talk non-stop for a very long time and some of my buddies told me that I should have my mouth stitched. One may not be able to upkeep with the flow sometimes (tak melayan jua). Next, I'm a good actor. Why? Despite the cheerful demeanor of mine, one may erroneously predict my emotions. Say if I lost my 400JOD, I wont be pasting any dark expressions on my face. I will keep on talking and chatting muahaha. A powerful veritaserum may reveal the truth but so far nobody has ever tried it to me even the popular nate granger. I believe that sometimes when my heart feels like crying, it does me no good at all to cry, shout or to project the anger to someone else. Keep em down your heart, smile and the world around will smile with you. I bet ijat and mando never realize that my heart cries regularly~~

4) I had no intention at all to know my juniors back in the high school, except a few. I dont really know why. The seniority might be playing a major role in building up the egocentric barrier between my juniors and I. But the wall gradually melt down as soon as I step my feet on this holy country. Blessed with adorable juniors (yak), I started to learn how to value the special and lovely bonds of friendship between junior and seniors (yak lagi). There are of course striking differences in the relationship between same-aged colleagues and juniors/seniors (for instance theres no such manja manja thingy between the same age group muahahah ).

5) I dont eat fishes. Yeah I do not consume em except in rare occasions where some specially-cooked fishes are served in majestic plates whatsoever muahaha. I dont really know why but I refused to touch fishes since I was young. Ikan bakar is an exception btw. Muahahaha

tagging magging : adek ijat, kamen r, acap, nuek, ihab, kakmin, toric, mirul, wenkt, szakif, kuzer, dar (matila panjang muahahah)

My mama, Rosni Mahadi, at 51 is still strongly holding to her beliefs that children are the most precious gifts from the Creator. Thus she is the individual who whole-heartedly taught me how to live my life. The spices of life may sometimes burn our stomach down but she will always be there for me, providing the antacidal cure even if she knows that the imprinted scars may never be healed.

I can still vividly remember that when I was 6, I was hospitalized for two days (acute asthmatic attack) and there she was, sitting on the uncomfortable chair all night long with unbroken pray, hoping that I will get fine soon. Her motherly eyes will never be tired of looking after her children and I owe her more than a big hug.

As far as I can remember, from the very day I started consciously talking up till now, at the age of 22, I've never failed to plant a kiss on her cheek as well as reciting the nightly ritual "nite and matlam" before having my body rested on the bed. Honestly, I missed it so much and it sometimes affects me emotionally. I miss her so much. Tears started dwelling in my heart as I am writing this very own entry.

This mother-son bond is something magical which can never be torn apart even with the most vigorous quake of the ground. Nothing can separate us, till deaths do us apart. I will always love you mama. I will always do.

BUKU

Pujangga menyatakan bahawa membaca itu jambatan ilmu, tak kurang ada yang mengatakan bahawa membaca itu kunci pengetahuan. Maka sememangnya aku bersetuju dengan kata-kata tersebut. Tanpa pembacaan, di manakah sa-saorang tu boleh mendapatkan input2? Lainlah kalo sa-saorang (ejaan kuno) itu sangat genius, maka dengar dalam kelas sajor dah mencukupi, serta boleh buat teori sendiri, tapi masih tak cukup gak, maka benarla secara deduksinya bahawa membaca itu mendekatkan sa-saorang itu dengan ilmu.

Aku suka membaca, seriyesli, sejak kecik sampaila masuk JUST. TAPI skarang ni minat tu kian pudar lantaran diketepikan oleh bende2 lain yang lebih merosakkan seperti movie2, internet dan sebagainya. Maka di sini aku ingin mengkronologikan pembacaanku sejak kecik sampai la sekarang tanda tak tau nak update pasal aper muahahahaha.

Ni adalah antara buku cerita kegemaran aku :

Masa budak budak + skola rendah:

Fairy Tales omputeh
Thumbelina, Jack and the beanstalk, Rumplestilskin, Snow White, Cinderella, Rapunzel etc

Siri Penyiasat
Siri Lima Sekawan, Tujuh Sekawan, Siri Gemuk dan Mr Goon dll

Novel Kenari
Wira, Dendam dan Budi dan baaaaaaanyak lagi

Citer budak2
Tom Sawyer, Huck Finn

Masa skola menengah

Buku-buku utk Young Adult karangan RLStine dan Chris Pike (juga penah exchange buku ngan nadbinti muahahaha)
Buku-buku Stephen King

Masa kat JUST

Masa ni agak terhad pulak bahan bacaan maka aku grab sajor ape yang ada depan mata, tak kisah pengarang, asalkan jalan cerita dia beshhh
Maka masa aku 1st year gak kat sini, ada kawan suggest baca harry potter (malahan citer dak dak sajor ), maka terus terasa tertarik dan jadi peminat setia sampai skarang
Oh yer, buku karangan Dan Brown (Davinci Code, Angels n Demons pinjam kat orang tu) Deception Point ngan Digital Fortress

Ni plak komik-komik kegemaran aku

Komik2 niipis tapi mahal :

Dewata Raya, Alam Perwira, Anak-anak Wira, Pedang Setiawan

Komik2 yang tebal tapi murah :

Mutiara naga, misteri naga, Dr Slump, Dik Cerdas, GS Mikami, Penyiasat Remaja, Yuyu Hakusho, Hunter-hunter, Doraemon (suka cerita panjang doraemon)

KONKLUSI : AKU SUKA MEMBACA SELAIN DRPD BUKU PELAJARAN BOLEY? muahahaha